Monday, January 31, 2005
Firstly, I wanna say that I really really appreciate all of you for being here and there for me, and halving my sorrows..Where else can i find such dear friendships? A mention of names, Ru Ting, Jaciel, Mun Yee, Rosalind, Yong Chiang... Really appreciate everything..
As for the ITP, well..was asking the lecturer who had sent us the mail..found out that he wasnt the one who picked it..he was so called just in charge of informing us kinda thing..so yeah..Was asking him if we can actually do our FYP across different options..like IS ppl with MA or what..so he was like yes..u can..it was brought up in the dialogue session..he added it would be even better so that different knowledge would be brought in..u get what i mean..?
well..im just worried if we cant actually cross options..that would be the ultimate..but I shall take it one step at a time right? I must believe in God. Believe in him that he has better plans for me in whatever he does..
As for him....hmz...i still dont know...i guezz itz just me...Hmz........
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 11:37 pm
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Sunday, January 30, 2005
the thought of not just him..about me doing my ITP in the 1st sem is the other thign that's torturing me..Having me to be so left out.Not having a single one of my clique with me. The feeling is horrible..Its torturous.. It's just killing me.. the days are just really unimaginable..alright..this is getting so mad..so mad that my T. are starting to roll down again...
Im just really really down..I cant help it.
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 10:50 pm
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In one way or another, I just dont feel good..I just feel really really down..perhaps its just coz of that someone.. *sigh* Seems like he's no other from the previous one.. I guess he never ever meant what he said..those msges he sent me, the things that he had ever said to me..I guess those words that he ever said to me were just said for the sake of saying..
And I have a feeling..that ...hmz..i dont know.. I just have a rather strong feeling that he, is gonna do a D. act like the previous one did to me... *sigh* And i have my reasons for saying that..
I just havent been in the best of moods these few days..Probably I shouldnt even have told him that Adam P. had gone back to London..if not, he might still have given me the attentions like how he used to when A was around..
Everything is gone..That's just how I feel..nothing can change how I feel..although my day had been rather fulfilling, thanks to my eldest sis and her boyfriend, together with my elder sis and I who went around the showrooms in Leng Kee, and she had set her mind for an Altis, which will only be a part of my family in April..
I had always looked forward to our family getting a family car..and now the situation is here..and yet it doesnt seem to have an impact on me..I just feel really really empty..Im in such a lousy moood..And I feel really horrible and terrible about not turning up for Mun Yee, not even a while. What a friend I am!
I dont know..I just feel really really empty..I tried studying earlier on..But I just couldn't...tried to focus..But i was a TOTAL fiasco. Much as I tried, I just couldnt help thinking about him at the same time, my emotions overruled me, and T. came rolling down..
*sigh*
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 10:23 pm
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Saturday, January 29, 2005
Everything felt so much like a dreamland when i woke up this morning..I just gotta remind myself to live life in the present, and not look back..guess that's just how life should be right? =) I should take it easy, and yeah..leave it all to fate...
Alright..anyway, back to how my day went.. went to the REDS at Taka with my eldest sis and mum to have our hair done..was quite nice..hehe..had wanted to have my hair in purple..but the effect seems to be far from my type of ideal purple..so yeah..anyway, I've gota be out for dinner right now...
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 6:03 pm
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Friday, January 28, 2005
I just got off the line with someone earlier on...Seeked his help on some official matters..
It made me realised that im someone who cant be angry for more than a week..I would just jolly well bitch for at most a week or two..and that's it..
Except for when it has something to do with emotions, where people hurt me, and yes, although i would be disappointed and feel really down, I just cant bear to let it all go..Even a short phone call makes it all come back..everything.. literally.. *sigh* Though I know the possibllity of saying "Us" is really low...I'll just reminisce about the memories that we shared..
Hmz...I dont know..I think its just back to that phrase saying "The saddest thing is to be beside/near someone, but knowing you cant have him or her..."~how true that is of regards to my present situation man......
You are my everything...You mean everything to me..And it hurts, when you wouldn't even talk to me...
My nights are the loneliest and saddest of all that you can ever imagine..
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 8:33 pm
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Tuesday, January 25, 2005
Im dont feel good right now..Really hurt...
Now i can understand why some people are just so silly to even hang on, onto some "THINGS"..despite of being hurt and have their day brought soooo down....I understand..The feeling is like you just can't bear to leave that "THING"...
*sigh*.....................
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 9:30 pm
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Monday, January 24, 2005
I know im havent been blogging..and here i am..have been rather busy with all my shopping sprees and "stuffs"..
well..feeling kinda angry and disappointed with someone right now..Its like *sigh*..I dont know..I just feel like as if I've been taken for granted..I really dont know..
Whatever man...
Jaciel~what do u mean by "L"? as in romance?
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 10:54 pm
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Thursday, January 13, 2005
Life is good once again i think?..
oh well..i know im having inner conflicts with my heart. But who really cares right?! ;)
I will still hang on and wait.
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 9:47 pm
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Wednesday, January 12, 2005
HMz...life aint as good as i thought it was going....hmz...or am i just thinking too much into it now? I dont know. I really dont know. Just feel rather down..
Hmz..had actually had a little tiff with my mum earlier on..She wanted me to have dinner..But i wasnt hungry at all..not even now..just dont have the appetite..u see..
She was really upset with me not wanting to have dinner..Nope. she didnt do cooking today. Itz like i went out with her for dinner. Got to the place. Told her to order her food and was asked what i wanted. I simply said i didnt wanna have dinner as i wasnt hungry. The next thing she said was okie..Then letz go home. I know shez upset and disappointed in me.. *sigh* That made me felt really bad and terrible alright. From just now till now, we have yet to even speak a word to each other..*sigh*
well..i dont know..have been doing heapz of thinking..Hmz..the only person who could life my spirits up out of nowhere, "made my day" as fast as he lifted my spirits. Isnt it ironic how someone can lift your spirits up when u're really down and just make you so moody at the same time?
Even a thing as simple as call or even a msg from this person lifts me up..But well...*sigh* Im feeling really down.... =/
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 9:14 pm
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Saturday, January 08, 2005
I love you. I knew this day would come, and its just a matter of time.. and yeah..itz here..hmz..
yes..i know..I know what you've got to say..and understood whatever that you've said to me last night.. I know you have your difficulties..and i truly understand that..yup..
and you might not trust me that much in keeping my word or whatsoever after the "two incidents" that you didnt like me to "do"..and im truly and sincerely sorry for making you disappointed in me for that.
well..for whatever and however long it may take..i still wanna hang on...and you know you cant stop me or change my mindset...yeah..and yeah..to let you know..once again, im not holding you back..if ..just an "if" something good really happens for you..then i would be really happy for you, but definitely i would be sad..
anyway, i would be looking forward to that day when you have settled down with all of your plans...
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 10:16 am
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Monday, January 03, 2005
Please......do take good care of yourself.. Really worried for you....
Anyway, I mizz you heapz...
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 1:01 pm
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