Thursday, July 26, 2007
I wasn't in the best of moods about an hour and a half ago. I reckon I shouldn't have spoken to this particular person online in the first place hey. But I'm all back to happy self now. It's not easy, definitely.
Well, anyway, I'm just so glad and feel so thankful that Rach was there for me, and not forgetting to mention M, for being 'by me', in a way. =) Did not tell him about what's on my side, I was just pretty contented with knowing how his day went.
Sure,
Sorry does make the guilty & sinned person feel better-of course, but it makes the innocent victim feel even worse. I'm so sick of the word Sorry. Reckon I just had faith in the wrong person after all.
I think I might just give up. Now.
And Im thinking twice about September now. It might/might now happen.
=)
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 11:35 pm
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Wednesday, July 25, 2007
I was just reading this online article about relationships, and thought I'd just share it.
I find this portion particularly realistic, as quoted:
"If you feel the need to constantly have control, you might want to take a look at how you really feel about your partner. If you let go and trust, is your partner able to fulfill you? Or,
are you just together because you like calling the shots and being worshipped?"
And, it further says~ "
In balance:
Good relationships aren't about control or worship - they're about partnership. Just like yin and yang or sun and stars, couples need to find the right balance with each other. Rather than trying to control or please the other person,
both partners should seek to complement each other's strengths and compensate for each other's weaknesses. The individual must sacrifice for the sake of the union, not the other way around. For true balance in a relationship, love should have the upper hand."
This isn't the complete article, but these 2 portions of it were the particulars one which caught my attention.
So, for those of my dear friends who attached, u might wanna have a go at this
article..
For now, seeya~
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 10:47 pm
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Tuesday, July 24, 2007
I just chanced about a thought.
I reckon, "If bounded by situations, I would rather hurt someone with the painful
truth." I reckon it's only fair that way, cuz I've always believed in "Doing unto others what you want others to do unto you."
Well, I got an unknown call yesterday from someone. It definitely did brightened my day.
Oh well, anyway, I'm going off to bed now as I'm really tired. Seeya~
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 10:07 pm
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Monday, July 23, 2007
thank you! It really brightened my mid-day!
;)
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 2:25 pm
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Sunday, July 22, 2007
I
might/might not:
-go for it.
-let them know, which in turn,
-meet them there, again.
And just one day, I
might:
-decide that, '
enough is enough'..but soon, I hope..
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 11:42 pm
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Saturday, July 21, 2007
It's my eldest sis's birthday today. And being the one who has, the most 'free time'(supposedly), I had to do all the reservations, from the cake to the restaurant. We had dinner at Aquamarine, Marina Mandarin. I would still prefer the buffet at Shangri-la. But whatever hey.
Had finally gotten a new mobile of my own. It's again, on a loan, this time around from my dad. I didn't feel good about it as I feel it's not nice to keep relying on my parents, especially when I'm already supposed to be a young adult. So I figured out that I will repay him, and of course my mum when I get out to work of course. That definitely goes without saying.
I realised I was supposed to meet David and also, Corine this week, but I reckon time hasn't permitted me to. I meant, David, as in David Mather. I guess he's a little angry with me for scheduling a little time for him since I got back 2 weeks ago. I did apologized though.
Anyway, I was feeling soooo down earlier on. Thanks babes for being there.. =)
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 2:17 am
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Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Just thought I'd blog about my day.
Had met up with my eldest sis for lunch in Suntec. We had tried the doughnuts from the infamous Donut Factory. My sis was saying she prefers the ones here than in Brissy. To each his own, but I don't think there's any special thing about the doughnuts from this shop, instead, I still prefer and miss the Dreamy Doughnuts in Brissy. Oh well, whatever hey.
Yesterday:
I had met up with Mun Yee, Terence, Yong Chiang, Yu Ru, and Jian Sheng for dinner yesterday. It's been ages since I last met them...apart from Mun Yee, that is. I realised it is very nice to get to meet and catch up with your old friends after soo, soo long.
Anyway, over dinner with my mum earlier on, I wasn't too happy when she brought up about something which concerned my personal life. But I reckon I could understand where she's coming from. Like, why she is against the idea of me going out with M. I just told her that I'm in contact with him, but just not gonna meet him...for good. Maybe.
All things aside, I'm not sure if this song is actually being released in Singapore at all(I can explain, cuz I've been listening to my fav. aussie radio stations online since I got back), but Im just so hooked onto it, it's by this singer who had moved to Down Under, Amy Pearson. It is entitled, "Don't Miss You". The lyrics seem so meaningful to me, just thought I'd share the lyrics:
Was just the other day when you said to me
That you had enough
Told me that you wanna move on with your life
And now you sing to me the same old melody
That I’m still the one
You thought I’d hang around while you made up your mind
I used to say that you were everything
You got your way but not anymore
* Did you think it would be that easy
Did you think I’d be back for more
Loving you was a big mistake cos I don’t miss you at all
Did you think I would wait forever
Baby like the others did before
Loving you was my mistake cos I don’t miss you at all
No, I don’t I don’t I don’t miss you
So here you are today trying to manipulate
But that won’t work this time
Cos baby don’t you know you’re the last thing on my mind
Not gonna hesitate don’t wanna recreate the dreams you broke in two
So I’ll pick up the pieces of my broken heart and be done
[Repeat *]
No, I don’t I don’t I don’t miss you
No, I don’t I don’t I don’t miss you
No, I don’t I don’t I don’t need you
I gottta move on with my life
Cos I don’t miss you at all
This is the
link to her official site, and the
link video on the site, if you wanna hear how the song goes like.
During one of her interviews, she was revealing about her true story behind the song lyrics. Apparantly, she was in a long-distance relationship when she moved to Down Under, and she had received a call from her then-boyfriend that it's over. As quoted by her, the song 'Don't Miss You', is all about "realizing that sometimes you're better off moving on, letting go of what you don't really need, and standing on you own two feet." Hmmmz, somehow, it makes me think.
This was one of the songs that was played in my CD collection on the Toowoomba road trip with the guys.
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 10:52 pm
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Sunday, July 15, 2007
I had woken up at 7ish this morning, when I had slept at 3am, which comes to only about 4 hours. Hadn't got a choice as I had to settle to something, which kept me busy all the way until 1pm.
Had went out with my parents after that, spent quality time with them. It felt really nice, as I had not taken the public transport with my parents for a really long time. And this time around, my mum even had her Ipod with her. She had shared it with me through the journey. It felt different but really nice I swear. Like, taking the public transport with them. Cuz my eldest sis wasn't able to leave her car over here with us this weekend.
Had then gone to the Honda showroom to meet her and Kelvin there. And now she's deciding between a 2.0 and a 2.4 CR-V. Hmmz.
As for my dad, I reckon he's pretty excited to collect his Civic on the coming saturday. Oh well..
Anyway, I got a message from Max this morning. ;)
Hmmz.. Oh well, I'm pretty tired right now, so...be good! N seeya ard~ ;)
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 12:20 am
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Friday, July 13, 2007
I had just written a pretty long post in my diary. Just had too much to pour out to..Nothing major, just realized I had to remove so much of my unnecessary thoughts. This might sound really crazy to some, but it helps me anyway. So, good for me I would say.
Today:
-I had gone down to Suntec to pass my sister her stuff, and then headed down to Pac Plaza to collect my studio shots.
-Had then went to visit my godma and brought her some stuffs that I had gotten from Down Under.The first thing she said in mandarin was, "you lost weight." Had spent a little time with her. It made me reminisced about the good old days when I was a toddler, and she had babysat me. Hmmmmzz...
Anyway, as I promised, I would stick to my promise. Here are the photos that I mentioned:
Some random shots in Melbourne
-View from my hotel, was staying at Crown Tower-
-What was in the backseat of the car during our road trip to Philip Island, the book, "I'm In No Mood For Love" is my current read.-
-My eldest sis & I-
-My elder sis & I, with the cute kangaroos behind-
~Ain't it cute!~
-As the picture says it-
-Anzacs Beach-
-The 3 sisters, along Lygon St, which is known to be an Italian street where they have all the very authentic and really good italian eateries-
-Amy & myself, she had joined me and my sisters for an Italian dinner that day-
-Yummilicious cakes at Cafe Greco in the same complex as Crown, which I'll never fail to eat their Tiramisu whenever I'm in Melbourne-
Some random shots of my last night in Brissy, steamboat at my apartment, this is pretty incomplete, as I still have yet to get the rest of the shots from Jansen. So this is the best I could do from my side:
-Bang Wei & Rio, out in the long corridor, beside the chilli plant-
-Rio & myself-
-Rio & his classic expression that I would never forget-
-Yes, Jansen.-
-Thanks to Jansen for that..-
As for the card they gave me and the very sweet framed-up photo:
-You bet I love the card!-
-This is my current desk-
The day when I met Ru Ting after my studio shots:
That's all. =) Hope you enjoyed it.
Alright, it's really late now and Im totally exhausted.
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 2:17 am
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Sunday, July 08, 2007
Just touched down back here in Singapore in the evening yesterday. Onboard the flight, I managed to catch 2 movies, a French(Priceless) and another one in Cantonese, a Hong Kong production. The Cantonese movie, entitled 'Happy Birthday' somehow reminds me of Dennis. Especially the starting plot and what happened between the lady and the guy. I thought there were some parts in the movie which were quite sad, and that caused me to tear. The main actor was Louis Koo(did I get his name right?). You should catch it if you have the time.
It felt weird and crazy at first(and it still feels), mainly because of the weather and that Im used to seeing Blondies, Brunettes and of course a few red and black hair-eds. I reckon I need a little time to adapt back here.
My last night in Brisbane on Friday was pretty well spent as I had the 3 guys, Jansen, Bang Wei and Rio over at my apartment, together with my sisters obviously. We had steamboat. I reckon it's the company that matters after all hey.
These guys were very sweet and thoughtful. They had actually given me a huge card and had specially framed up one of the photos that we had taken on our road trip. I truly appreciate that. Really sweet of them.
Anyway, I've gotta head to the Honda showroom right now to settle some stuffs. Alright, will upload the pictures soon! =)
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 12:50 pm
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Thursday, July 05, 2007
I had just managed to packabout 60% of my luggage for home. Gosh. Can't believe it. Time just passes so fast. Just about 2 weeks ago when exams had ended, I had gone on a road trip to Toowoomba with the guys, Jansen, Bang Wei, Dennis and Rio. And straight after that, it was a trip to Melbourne with my 2 elder sisters.
Both were pretty good trips. Different feelings, that is.
Ever since Sunday morning, I've been thinking soo sooo much about someone that, I just can't help but feel lost on countless occasions. And being myself, an emotional one, I would just lose control and tear. Call me silly or what, but this is the real me, although I know that most of the times I appear to be happy and so confident of myself. Sad but to say that, it is all just an act. About being who I want to be, and always ending up not being who I really am. =(
Oh well, but I reckon that the particular someone is enjoying himself with someone else in Sydney at the moment. As long as he is happy, that supposedly keeps me happy too I reckon.
Well, I believe I've done whatever I could. But I understand that things also don't always happen the way you want them to. I truly understand that.
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 11:20 pm
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