Sunday, June 29, 2008
Im feeling rather lethargic, listless and tired now, as I literally did not get any sleep at all last night - having to have my eyes wide open all night long, thinking about all the different possible scenarios that could have been worse/better.
Had a traumatic evening last night. The only thing that I had really wanted was for M, to be there with me.
Had then texted him telling about what happened(with sarcasm - as I was still angry with him over that text he had sent on Thur evening).
Towards the end, I was glad that he had rushed down at about 1am just to be there with me(although I had my really close with me as well). Truly appreciated that he rushed down there just to be by me - although he was about to hit the sack. Without him being there, I might have felt even worse.
Also, I do truly appreciate my bro-in-law and my eldest sis for rushing down this morning and speaking to me. After having the mini interrogation by my bro-in-law, it somehow calmed me down a little(though I was(and still am) worried).
Well, its gonna be a very stressful and yet critical morning for me tomorrow. But I have to get through, regardless.
Wishing you are here now. Miss you.
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 9:36 pm
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Friday, June 27, 2008
Well, surprise surprise. I am home on a Friday night as an ex-colleague of mine couldn't make it tonight as he has to entertain some clients. But, that's fine I reckon cuz he still drops by our office pretty often.
Will have to drop by Rio's place in Bukit Timah to collect some stuffs from his sister, Lissa later on, probably at 10plus.
So right now, I have two alternative action plans:
Either
- join my friends at MOS later for some drinks, or,
- come back home to rest and drink and chill(which stands a higher possibility-Gosh, think im really getting older), or,
- sleep early tonight and meet my boss for him to teach me blading tomorrow..Yes, strange I know.
Alright, it's either that I will join my friends at MOS tonight or join a colleague at St James tomorrow night. That will depend on my mood for tomorrow.
Anyway, for now, I would have to say I'm not in a good moood. Cuz I'm feeling pissed by how someone could actually vent his frustration on me. I dont need such crap at all. Please get GOING if you're venting such ridiculous frustration on me. It's just so uncalled for!! And when you've cooled down, you may then look for me. And I'll take it from there and see how I wanna handle it.
For now, I hope he backs off.
Im here for him to lean on, not for him to give me such crap.
I shall have an enjoyable evening. I must.
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 8:01 pm
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Monday, June 23, 2008
I just had my dinner after my jog.
And, am starting to think that I've got a pretty routine running schedule.
Days are fixed on either Monday or Tuesday after work. Yes, not in the early morning anymore.
At about 7ish to 8ish, spending about 17-19 minutes around the vicinity, and then about 5-7minutes about Mt Faber. That's about from the Start of the Pearl Condo and then up all the way to the very first bench where there is a good lookout view, and where I couldn't help but to think about him.
And, I can't help it but to bring this up, as I was sort of 'bugged' while walking down the slope. This guy(man), in his MR-S had ridiculously reversed back, down an up-slope, asking if I want a ride. I had then just put on both my ear-phones, looked away and walked quicklu down the slope. Firstly, I was in my very normal sports attire. Secondly, from a driver's point of view, it's just so freaking dangerous to be reversing down an up-slope, cuz you just can't see what's coming from behind. Lastly, I really do not take a fancy for men who own a sports vehicle. And no, not 'sour grapes' theory, but it's just my personal preference. Just starting to wonder, why do some males like that exist.
Do they think that owning a sports car can just allow them to pick ladies up freely just like that? For others, yes perhaps you can give it a go. For me, no, thank you. I'm not that easy to start with.
And, instead of owning a sports vehicle, I would rather be seated comfortably in one which is luxurious and yet has good performance. I'm hoping for a Benz by my early 30s. Hard work all the way. =)
So, all in all, my evening was..er...alright. I reckon. If not for the male one. Although it isn't really the first time that I've encountered things like that, it just makes me feel uneasy.
P.S: I need to sincerely thank my bro-in-law for helping me to hunt for the song, 'Baby, Don't you break my heart slow' by Vonda Shepard. I have been looking for it for months but there didnt seem to be any sources. It is one of my old favourites, which brings me bittersweet memories back in Primary school with all my girly class & school mates.
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 9:47 pm
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Wednesday, June 18, 2008
And I say Goodbye to you...Goodbye to everything that I thought I knew...
Part quoted from a song, entitled 'Goodbye to You' by Michelle Branch.
Anyway, I've just been rather busy at work recently, shall not go into what I have been doing at work.
Seems like my parents are gonna be away for the weekends again next week. So I reckon I'll probably either be out for some drinks or be drinking at home with Reina. ;)
Talking about drinking. It reminds me of one of my much older colleague, about two cycles after me, who said that I can hold my alcohol well. Saying how he had always thought I'm a very decent and good girl.. I was just utterly speechless by how he could have brought two very irrelevant issues together and associate them together. I mean, how is decency measured by how good a drinker you are? I totally don't get it at all.
My stand in this case, would be to argue that, ladies like myself probably are able to drink, cuz I have been 'trained' overseas. Anyway, and I see that as a good thing you see, being a good drinker will just mean that men will not be able to mess around with you in a bar. Unless you pretend/choose to let them be. If you get what Im saying here. Right?
Anyway, I'm tired and yet missing someone.
Good night.
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 10:44 pm
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Sunday, June 15, 2008
Had met up with Junie last night for her belated celebration. It was really nice having to catch up with her over dinner.
Also, I did have a fantabulous time last night. ;)
Just this morning, had gone with my parents for the PC show(yet again) this morning. So coincidentally, had met Junie there in Suntec as well.
To be frank, I'm really not a big fan of crowds and unmovable traffic(both human & on the road). But I saw the need to compromise since my dad wants to get some gadgets yet again.
Oh well, as for the evening, - being Father's Day, we did out dinner at No Signboard, the Vivo outlet.
As for now, I'm wanting to hit the sack.
Can't help it but thinking about him now. Missing you.
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 11:04 pm
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Wednesday, June 11, 2008
I have never ever liked watching TV that much, until somehow or another, I seemed to be so hooked up on the Travel & Living channel, with it's cooking and also the travel programmes..Apart from the Travel & Living channel, the next one that I'm so ever hooked up on is the Fashion TV channel.
I felt bad last night when I sort of maligned him about how his actions really spoke louder than his words, and little did I know that he had been knocking off late from work this week. However, i did bring out a thought to counter propose to his reason.
But anyway, it's all good. And, frankly speaking, I'm actually glad in a way, as that is considered communication to me. No matter how minor or major. =) Cuz, if it Communication does not exist, doubts and thoughts would never ever be cleared you see.
Anyway, enough about me. I'm just about to show you a photo of Reina when I chanced upon her sleeping outside my door the other day. Told my mum to see her as well. We had a good laugh as to how she could have slept in this manner, having her back legs.....U just have a look...
Isn't she just adorable. =)
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 10:38 pm
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Monday, June 09, 2008
Been so busy at work that I hardly even have time for the ladies(I swear).
Just thought I'd share:
Recently, I've been hearing about how quite a number of couples getting divorces and stuffs. Or, even how some of my friends' parents have gotten a divorce and on a second marriage, have been so happily married.
And in all these cases, some of them are either due to one party cheating on the other, or that both no longer feel for each other-Yes, sad I know.
Alright look, out of these few cheating cases that I know of, 5 out of the 6 divorces are due to the females having to cheat.
I'm not very surprised by that. I have been having quite a number of social discussions with people around me(Both ladies & men that is). And, it was agreed that noticeably, most local men do not really speak up much these day, which might lead to the ladies being 'bored' and so much so that they have a high tendency to cheat and to seek new adventures. Really makes me wonder whether my personal opinion of local men is true-that they're no longer speaking up much..so much so that we singaporean ladies have to be the so-called aggressive ones to speak up.
I just thought to myself, if my man is not gonna communicate with me and open up to me at all, I would rather leave. Alright, I have to say that, after quite a number of failed relationships in the past, I would tell you that now I truly believe that honesty and good communication are the two important criteria that I'm looking for. And, since I believe I'm able to fulfill this 2 criteria of mine, I definitely will expect my other half to be just like myself.
Sometimes, I feel like I'm not getting anywhere near to my 'ultimate destination'-like I'm not making any progress to get to where I want myself to be in a couple of years down the road(yes, I do look far ahead in life), that I feel like it's time for me to leave. Perhaps. And, if he returns, then good for us. Good things always do have a bitter start. Like what it has always been said "If it's bitter at the start, it's always sweeter in the end."- I do have faith in that too. ;)
Although I still miss him every day and night.
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 10:41 pm
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Wednesday, June 04, 2008
Just thought I would share this interesting piece of article that caught my attention while checking my mailbox
NewsFor now, I'm going to bed - with extra sweet dreams. ;)
Yvonne
Bitched Out @ 10:40 pm
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